Kayla

Woah.....

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 03:46:49 GMT

Well it has been quite a long time since i have updated this thing so i figured hey why not.....

ok well my life is really twisted. i am constantly thinging about the past and it drives me nuts. i dont know where to start. i guess i cant really start at all. i cant explain my life all i can do is feel it. but let me tell you it does suck.
So... Mine and Trevors relationship is wonderful, he makes me feel like i am on top of the world. i have never had so much love for someone in my entire life. he is why i wake up every morning.
I cant wait for April 23 thats when i leave for Florida!!! oh yea Me Jess and Chrissie are going to have so much fun!
I kinda miss the people i use to hang out with like last year i know that is like whoa becasue of everything but they were a lot of fun to hang out with.
Well South Pacific is coming about... i cant say it is going to be good becasue we havent really done much but we will see...
Trevor is in New York and and he has been since thursday... i miss him so much. i know its kind of pathetic but i just miss so much... he comes home tomorrow i am so excited.

ok well i am going to get going... i will try and up date more often...

Sun, 02 Nov 2003 02:56:06 GMT

I LOVE TREVOR JAMES STOCKTON
I LOVE TREVOR JAMES STOCKTON I LOVE TREVOR JAMES STOCKTON I LOVE TREVOR JAMES STOCKTON I LOVE TREVOR JAMES STOCKTON I LOVE TREVOR JAMES STOCKTON I LOVE TREVOR JAMES STOCKTON I LOVE TREVOR JAMES STOCKTON I LOVE TREVOR JAMES STOCKTON I LOVE TREVOR JAMES STOCKTON I LOVE TREVOR JAMES STOCKTON I LOVE TREVOR JAMES STOCKTON I LOVE TREVOR JAMES STOCKTON

in case you didnt know..... i love trevor james stockton!

Well.....

Fri, 31 Oct 2003 00:15:35 GMT

Well i had my concert last night and wow did i do absolutly horrible but hey thats ok its all good. i forgot my words.... haha who does that seriously... not to mention i looked extremely huge in my dress thanks to everyone who didnt tell me! but hey it still happens

so yea tomorrow is halloween and i am so fricken excited wait till everyone sees me it is going to be so great! you have no idea!!
yea i dont really know what to write about so i am just kinda blabbing on and on so i am going to stop now and i will talk to you later ....oh wait till you see me tomorrow!!! haha

Amazing....

Sun, 12 Oct 2003 23:16:13 GMT

I am the luckiest person in the whole world...know why?
because the love of my life is the most amazing person in the whole entire universe....
Trevor baby you are the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me and I am so thankful that i found you and that you felt the exact same way i did.... we have been going out for almost 4 months now and every single second has been amazing.... you are my one true love and I am so unbelievebly happy that it is you. You are what any girl dreams of and I am the lucky one that gets you...We are going to be together forever and there are not doubts about it....When we got into that fight yesterday i felt as if i had died.... i have never felt so much pain in my life and the thing is that i brought it upon myself and i dont want that to ever happen again.. i am so sorry and i love you more than life itself... please remeber that no matter what i will always love you.... Remember the ther day when you said put your lips on mine or something like that.. it was so sweet, i loved it so much.... we have so many amazing memories together.... and i cant wait for all the wonderful memories we are going to make later on....i love you baby... and i know you love me too.

The best weekend......

Tue, 07 Oct 2003 00:58:26 GMT

this week end was so much fun....
on friday went out in the freezing cold to the delasalle homecoming game.... my trevor was the crazy one who decided to wear a short sleeve shirt and shorts yea he is crazy but i stilllove him....
then saturday i went to this studio 54 thing and got to dress up in 70's clothes which was a lot of fun...
then sunday..... homecoming.... it was so much fun...my baby looked so hott i was like ahhhh! and trevor always calls me his brown eyed girl and the dj says this is for all those brown eyed girls and trevor jumped out of his seat grabbed me as tight as he could and we danced and he sang the song to me it was the sweetest thing in the whole entire world... i will never forget that...that night was so much i am so happy i got to be with my baby!

i didnt have to go to school today which was so cool!

ok well i am done now i love you so much my baby... thanks so much for a great weekend!

Sometimes I just want to scream........

Wed, 01 Oct 2003 20:06:16 GMT

For some reason everything is driving me crazy lately. and i am being a total bitch to a lot of people and i feel really bad. i am so sick and tierd of my grandma and how she has her perfect little angel quinn. he is suck a jerk, he is so mean to me and of course she doesnt say anythign because he is perfect. Perfect my ass. he is a brat and he knows it. and why is that i have to do everythign around this damn house. ok you lazy ass slobs get off your ass adn do it yourself, they act like they are on their death beds or soemthing. and i hate how everyone decides to come to me with their problems but who do i go to with mine. i know i alwyas have trevor there with me and i know that he loves me more than anything in the whole entire world and i feel the exact same way about him. and most of all i hate it when people finally see me happy and excited about how my life is going and they decided to try to find away to change how i feel about someone.... just so everyone knows no matter how hard you try, no matter what you do, it will never change how i feel about trevor. what i feel for him is beyonf love and if you are seriosuly that heartless that you would try and split us apart you have serious problems. i have a news flash for you trevor and i are soul mates and not matter what you or anyone else tries to do is going to change that.... so here is a wise suggestion back off.

Cinderella

Tue, 30 Sep 2003 01:57:05 GMT

Ten miuntes ago I saw you. You looked up when I came through the door. My head started realing you game me this feeling the room had no celing or floors. Ten minutes ago I met you and we murmered our how do you dos. I wanted to ring out the bells , fling out my arms and sing out the news.

Trevor baby i love you more than anything in the whole wide world......and that is NEVER going to change

My trevor

Tue, 16 Sep 2003 14:50:32 GMT

trevor...i love you so much and i want to thank you so much for being ther for me while i am sick.... obviously i didnt go to school today. and that means i am not going to be able to do anything tonight to celebrate our 3 months. i really am sorry and i just want you to know that i love you so unbelievebly much and being with you has made me so happy, i want to thank you for everything you have done for me in the past 3 months thank you for being my prince charming and thank you for always knowing exactly what to say at the perfect time and most of all thank you for loving me as much as i love you. dont ever think of what ifs because there wont be any, i am going to spend the rest of my life with the most amazing person in the whole entire world and that person is you. i love you trevor... with all my heart

oh yea

Sun, 14 Sep 2003 23:33:14 GMT

Well this weekend was a lot of fun!!
on friday Jess, Chrissie, Sam, Crystal and 1 all went to the fair for w while then to the DeLaSalle football game!! it was so much fun we were decked out!! we looked so hott let me tell you and that is when we all started the B UNIT!! LMAO it is so great! i had so much fun than after the game my trevor came up and we all walked back to the fair and hung out it was fun!
then saturday trevor and i went to the fair at like 2 or something like that and we met jess and marc and stuff and after that Jess John Trevor Marc and I all went to Chrissies house to get ready for the dance which was gay so we left that and went back to the fair and we all just hung out.
than today Jess and I just went to the fair for a little and then went back to her house and then took my trevor his stuff that he left in jess' car and i was happy i got to see him!!! than after that we went over to johns house and we just hung out and watch the gay ass lions game... but then Jess John Anne and I all went back to the fair and ate and than we came home cuz it was gay but now i am here just hanging out i am so tierd so it is going to be an early night for me!! ok well i am going to go i love you my trevor!!!

um yea well you know

Wed, 10 Sep 2003 01:13:44 GMT

yea so life is great for me.... i mean seriously!
i have the most amazing person in th entire world in my life and i love him more than life its self...(incase it wasnt obvious it is trevor) and i am so incrediably happy.... the gang is back together which is also very great.
tomorrow i have an audition for a solo spot in choir and i really want it and i am trying really hard to get it so lets just hope that i do good..
i bought my homecoming dress yesterday.. yea its cool

i love you i love you i love you forever! ok well i have nothing to say so i am going to go now ok i love you my trevor!!

ah

Tue, 19 Aug 2003 02:02:38 GMT

today was fun! i went to the kelly clarkson concert... omg it was so awsome!! it was julie alyssa lauren and anthony.. it was so cool we were in row six! she was like waving to us and stuff it was so cool!
but later on when i got home grams and i got in to a huge fight and everything was all crazy and she wouldnt let me go anywhere i was so mad... and like i had noone to talk to because my trevor was at work adn i was like ahhh... btu i went and got some movies and now i am just relaxing watching them.... very fun i guess even though i am by myself haha... oh well it happens. tomorrow i habve to go babysit and i am going shopping with my aunt the shpping will be fun but not the babysitting maybe if i am lucky someone will come visit me!! probably not.... oh well.. i missed trevor so much today i was like ahhh i want to see you! but i guess i am living.... ok well i am going to go enjoy my moves love ya alll

i l o v e y o u m y t r e v o r!!!

my birthday

Fri, 08 Aug 2003 15:48:17 GMT

yesterday was my birthday and it was the most amazing night i have ever had...... i went and got my license after a big problem but thats ok we wont go there and then i went to lunch with my grams brother and my trevor and then trevor and i went to the mall for a little and i was driving the whole time thank you very much!! then after we went to pick up julie and craig and we went out ot eat at my favorite resturant bahama breeze... oh man it was so good.... than trevor and i came back here and him and i danced in the rain for like ever and it was so amazing..... it was the greatest thing in the world.... he made my birthday so amazing...and i love him so much... he is so good to me.... i love you my peter pan... and thank you so much for such an amazing birthday...

i love.....

Wed, 06 Aug 2003 02:02:28 GMT

every little thing he does
every little thing he says
makes me love him a little bit more
i love the way he shoots a basketball
i love his big strong muscles
i love the way he holds my hand
i love the way he wispers sweet nothings in my ear
i love the way he stares into my eyes telling me he loves me when really not one word comes out of his mouth
and i love the way he pulls me close
i love the way he calls my name
i love it how we act "serious"
i love how i am glitterface
i love how i am his little jitterbug
i love how hes my peter pan
i love his paperclips
i love how what was once his hat is now mine
i love how carries my rock around(if he has pockets)
i love how he comes and sits with me
i love the way hes mine and nobody elses
i love that he loves me more than life its self and would do anything in the world just to see me smile.
but most of all i love the way i love him and i love how he loves me right back

trevor i love you...... incase you couldn't tell

Whoa man

Tue, 29 Jul 2003 16:04:13 GMT

whoa mani havent updated in forever and a day. this is crazy.... ok well the last 2 weeks consisted of me missing my trevor like mad crazy whoa... he was in north carolina and at lacross camp for 2 weeks... that was hell let me tell you...
but he came home last friday and came over to see me and i was so happy to see him you have no idea... then on saturday joe jess and i all ad a girls night out at joes house and it was fun and we went to trevors work for dinner so i got to see him again which was great and josey was really cool with him i was glad to see. and the on sunday it was my trevors birthday so i treid to call him like every hour but it didnt work out and he said that i made his birthdya so great and ia m glad that i did....
all week long i have to go to rehearsals and it is so gay but i will get over it you all shoulod come to my show its the 1 2 3 8 9 10 ia m really excited. you know you want to come.... ok well i am going to go i love ya all..... bye!!!

Wed, 09 Jul 2003 04:10:43 GMT

My baby came to see me after practice today.... i felt bad becasue i knew he was really tierd.... but i needed to see him and i know he wanted to see me becasue he is leaving to go to North Carolina for 2 weeks.....oh man that is crazy.... i dotn knwo what i am going to do.......i love him so unbelievably much....it is undescribeable.... just imagine the greatest thing that could ever happen and multiply it by the highest number in exsistence and then you still dont get to how i feel....WOW!! i love it but not as much as i love you trevor.

Him.....

Mon, 07 Jul 2003 20:39:21 GMT

i will sit and think about how much i hate my life but then i will realize how much more good i have than bad. People always try to make me feel better and i appreciate it but noone will ever compare to him....He will look at me and see the pain but he will simply
squeeze my hand and make all my troubles go away. he knows exactly what i need and does everything in his power to give it to me. He will just sit there and tell me how much he loves me and how i mean more
than anything in the world to him. and the greatest part is i can look right back at him and tell him the same thing and mean it more than anything i have ever ment before.... i know that in my past i have said things to make myself feel better and in the end the just hurt even worse... but now telling him i love you doesnt make me feel better what makes me feel better is knowing he means it and knowing he will be there no questions asked.I tell him everything about me and he doesnt judge me.....at all. he just finds away to do something for me that he knows will make things better and the thing is he doesnt have to do anything at all except for be there and i know he always will be. I love him more than anything in the world and i would do anything for him. and i know he knows that, but i just want everyone else to know that no matter how bad you think your life is or how absolutly horrible you think you are......your wrong.i thought the exact same thing you did and i found someone who isnt only my boyfriend or the person i love....but he is also my best friend and without him i wouldnt know what to do with myself... so to everyone else.... there is a someone out there for you and you may have to go through hell to find them like i did but...........its worth it

trevor this is to you.... thank you for everything, you are my prince charming. i would be lost without you, you are my best friend... you mean more to me
than anything in the world.... thank you .............
.........i love you

why

Sun, 06 Jul 2003 23:44:06 GMT

why cant my grandparents just like stop worrying all the time... ok just becasue my mom turned out how she was doesnt mean i am..... i am my own person... let me live my life... thats all i ask. when i get a new boyfriend dont freak out and accuse me of sleeping around....im not her..and i wont ever be. i could never sink that low. i wish that someone could understand but the thing is they dont. i want the world to see what i go through but i dont want it to seem like i am just craving attention and.... i try to help people out with their problems bt then idotn look at my own...a dn i dont try to figure out a way to help myself... ok i am sapose to be the obne that everyone goes to to help boost their confindence... why is it i cant boost my own? and other things that have been getting to me are.... ami bitch becasue i am happy with my the way my life is going? and i will watch things about all these kids and stuff that are just so helpless and they have noone to help them..... is it my job to help them? is it wrong that i will fight for something that i want and is it wrong that i cry myself to sleep.... is it wrong that i slammed the door in my dads face when he came to see me? i am strong enough to deal with everyone elses problems but im not strong enough to deal with my own..... i dont know what i am trying to tell myself and i dotn even knwo why i wrote this whole entry about my life..i guess i am sick of helping everyone else all the time and i just want someone to help me

AWWW YEA

Wed, 02 Jul 2003 03:38:49 GMT

Yes today my baby and i hung out which was great!!! i loved it just being me and him!
omg yesterday i had rehearsal and i go out side to get ready to go home and who is standing there with a big smile on his face.......trevor! omg it was so sweet.... i know you all dont want to hear this and it probably bugs the hell out of you....but sorry!
Love ya
Kayla!

The best night ever

Sat, 28 Jun 2003 04:17:57 GMT

OMG tonight was the best night of my life! i went to jessicas house at 3 and we got ready and then trevor came over!! and then john and we went to the fireworks in mt clemens it was amazing just being there with trevor was the greatest thing in the world i am seriously so unbelievebly happy you have no idea! its amazing and he did something that noone has ever done to em before he just stared in my eyes for hours it was amazing! i am the luckiest person in the world!

Aww yea!

Mon, 23 Jun 2003 21:04:54 GMT

Yes, i have to the conclusion i am the happiest person, well i am tied with trevor. he makes me feel like a princess, its so amazign i love it! sorry i just keep leaving messages like this but this is just how i feel!!! ok well i am going to enjoy life!!! call me if you want to hang out cuz i would love too!! i love ya!
Kayla!!

WOW

Wed, 18 Jun 2003 04:23:00 GMT

Ok so i am the luckiest person in the world............ i have everything i could ever want.

AHHHH

Sat, 14 Jun 2003 15:06:15 GMT

Ah i am the luckiest and happiest person in the world!!! I am so happy!!! i love how my life is going!! kisses to all!!!
LOVE Ya
Kayla!!!

SCHOOLS OUT!

Thu, 12 Jun 2003 01:56:30 GMT

well school is out offically today! i am very excited. i have not updated in forever. but hey it happens! yea so life is like super crazy. boys i tell you they need to go it would make things so much easier but then again we wouldnt have the fun times we have with them now would we.... wink wink. I am and always will be in love with that one person, and i have proof of that too and he knows what it is..the thing is that am i the one he wants? it sucks but i just have to see. and then again there is another guy who likes me who just can't seem to get the picture. but ah forget it.
anyways today i went over joseys house and we got a bite to eat and then went back to her house it was me her and jimmy it was fun. haha i sang justin a beautiful song hahaha it was fing halarious. I miss marky soo much i havn't seen in in soo long ahhhh........ i am really sad that all my seniors are gone. like i say kenny today and monday and seriously was so sad. but i really dont have anything else to talk about so i am going to go call me if you want to hang out!!! kisses-KAY!!

Sat, 31 May 2003 19:16:56 GMT

what do you do when you want a person who wants another person who doesn't like the person you like and there is another person who likes you, but you dont like that person, because you like that person who likes that other person?

deep breath

Sat, 24 May 2003 01:27:36 GMT

Well this wekk has been reall stressful. I really don't know why, like i thought everything was going good but i guess not........
on Monday I just went home and stayed there.
on Tuesday I just stayed home
On Wednday I just went to ashleys house with julie and we worked on the english project.
and Then on thursday i Went to the mall with craig and julie.... it was fun. i bought a really cute orange skirt that most of you had seen today at school...... and i also bought a pink kinda see throughish shirt ye ai was forced to buy it! haha..... No i here i am on friday night not going out becasue my grandma is sick and i am staying home and helping her. but it is really boring and i'm really not ever doing anything... but oh well......
OMG... the stupid Civc auditions are the stupidest in the world. they can't tell us the part we got until the 2nd rehearsal. HOW DUMB! but oh well i will get over it because i suck adn am really not expecting anything.
i really need some sleep.. but i am not in the mood. i don't know i am really weird. i am listening to sappy love songs.... i love it....Oh man i really need to talk to someone.
A lot of people are expecting me to give up the past as if it was nothign and as if nothing happened..... do they not realize what it means to me? do they not see how hard it is for me to even think about it and know that i cant have it back? I am just really frusterated with people pushing me and pushing me... i mean can a person at least single long enough to face the facts.. not when you have people pushing you to go out with someone else when the only person you really want is the one you can't have, the one you coudl just sit and stare at for hours on end just gazing into their eyes and seeing how much they acctually do care about you. thats what everyone wants, Advice to all.... when you find that don't ever make a stupid mistake becasue that is the best feeling in the world and you will never get over it... i am in that situation... and all i want is him.